Today's topic how people see me versus who I really am.
I'm not really sure how people see me, but I know who I am and I'm learning to be comfortable with who I am so it doesn't even matter.
In high school there was a girl with a similar name who did a bunch of stuff and I caught all her rumors. I supposedly was a slut. Funny thing is the only person from central I've ever been intimate with is the guy who shares my bed every night. See that's why I can't bother with what other people think. What I can do is share some little known things about me.
I got tired of people calling me "tie" so I changed the spelling of my nickname to Tee about 10yrs ago. Also because my favorite soul singer is Teena Marie. I whole heartedly believe for any situation there's a Teena song.
I named my daughter after me. We're like the mom and daughter on half and half. Big Tee and Tee Tee
I've been engaged twice. Both times soon as I started wedding plans and bought a dress I got pregnant. I'm currently ok with not being married cause I'm scared I'll get pregnant again.
I'm super girly!!! I love makeup and clothes, but I don't do jewelry. I can't keep up with earrings to save my life.
I can cook my ass off. I bake too. Ira said the girls he work with can tell when we're into it cause he doesn't bring his lunch from home when I'm mad. And it's true lol
My oldest son, my first love is autistic. He has the high functioning form and he's smarter than most adults I know.
I'm shallow. I prayed for pretty babies with all 3 pregnancies. I wasn't specific enough cause Donovan tho he was very beautiful, probably the most beautiful of my 3 (he looks just like me) he had 12 fingers and 11 toes smh. Yeah so when I prayed for Tiana I was real specific. I said she could look like her daddy as long as she has my eyes. She looks like her dad and has my eyes.
My mother hated me most of my life and she verbally and emotionally abused me, but in her dying days we made peace and I was there for her. I still feel insecure at times, but I'm working through it. I do plan to get counseling because I don't want to repeat those mistakes with my little girls.
I'm currently estranged from my siblings and I'm thankful my baby has never met either of those assholes. I've forgiven them for everything they have done but I have no plans to ever let them back in my life. They have taken advantage of me repeatedly and I'm not in a hurry to do that again.
I've known my boyfriend since I was 14. He's my best friend in the whole world. He gets on my last damn nerve every single day and we bicker nonstop but he's mine and I love him and I seriously feel lost when he's not around. I thank God everyday for sending me someone to walk with me.
That sums it up. I'm happy as long as I can love on my family. I'm actually pretty boring
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