When Ira and I got together he had 2 kids also he had a 15yr old son and an 11yr old daughter that he had physical custody of.
When we first met she was a little unsure of me and very over protective of her daddy but eventually we did bond and we love each other madly. I will kill a brick over my HoneyBun too.
When we started discussing getting married, we agreed we weren't gonna have kids of our own because we already had 4 and that was way more than enough. I was winning anyway. I absolutely love his kids even though I will kill the boy if he makes me a granny before my time. Cause let's be honest I'm entirely to fly to be a grandmother right now.
I was most excited about the opportunity to be HoneyBuns mom. Her mom wasn't really in her life that much and a girl needs a mom. She needed a mom and I needed a little girl to love so it was perfect right?
God had other plans. I swear this is the second time I get engaged and start looking at wedding gowns and I get knocked up!!!
He's the one who told me I was pregnant. This nut was actually tracking my period and knew my cycle better than I do.
From the moment I found out I was pregnant I knew my baby was a girl. I had all these plans for us. She is named after me and we dress alike every opportunity we get. I talk to her about everything even though she can't talk back. She's my baby BFF!!!
I didn't have the best relationship with my mother growing up. From the time I was 12 I felt like she hated me. My mom often told me I was ugly and I was stupid. I believed her until I was 25. A lot of the stupid things I did in life was because of extreme low self esteem.
My goal is to be the very best mom I can be to our 5 kids and to never let them feel like no one loves them. Especially Tiana and HoneyBun (that's not her real name, but it's what I call her). I'm so thankful God gave me the opportunity to be a mom
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