Proverbs 24 17-18

Proverbs 24:17-18 states Do not gloat when your enemy falls; when they stumble do not let your heart rejoice, or the lord will see and disapprove and turn his wrath away from them.

These last few months have been filled with tremendous ups and downs. I lost my mother and had my whole entire life as I know it ripped from me.  When God wants your attention he has a way of getting you all alone so you have no choice but to listen. So while I lost everything I whole heartedly believe I am in the restoration phase and he is giving way more than I had in the first place.
When my mother died, the first feeling I had was that I was all alone in the world. I truly felt like an orphan. 9 months pregnant, I turned to the grandmother of my daughter and she was amazing. We talked for 4 hours that night and it was then that I knew I would be ok.
My sister and brother along with one of my cousins planned my mothers whole funeral without me.  They told everybody I was on bed rest and couldn't be bothered.  My mothers funeral was not at all what she would had wanted. My mother and I were never what you would call close, but during those final months we discovered a friendship where we could gossip and have girl talk and whatnot. Its still days I want to gossip with her and then realize she's gone and we cant. Ok that's a little off subject.
 My mother would had been so disappointed in that funeral from the clothes they put her in, the wig they put on her down to the music they played. They made a bill for her funeral and better not ask me for not one cent towards it.  Its my mother and I probably would've paid the whole thing but after that I'm not contributing anything.
A few weeks after I buried my mother I gave birth to my daughter.  While I was in the hospital my sister and brother stole valuables from me.  Some were things my mother had given to me and some of it was my belongings.  When I discovered this, I felt violated. It was almost as bad as when I was raped as a teenager. The person I am, I always want to own my fault in every situation. However when I think back I cannot think of one thing I have done to them to deserve this to happen to me. I have always looked out for them, taken care of them and bent over backward for them why are they doing this to me?
Luke 6:27-29 helped me get through this time. Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. To the one who strikes you on the cheek, offer the other also.
I chose not to seek retribution. Sure it was tons I could had done to pay them back, however I remembered God always holds us accountable for our actions and when you do evil you wont prevail.
I went to see a psychic medium after my moms death, and I was told my sister would need me before I needed her but not to give her money cause she hasn't changed, but because she will be in need, and she knows I will bend over backwards to help her and she will take my money.
Well just yesterday I found out there is a warrant for her arrest.  She is riding around with an expired license and no insurance. I think its funny that just before I found out that the cops came to my house looking for her that I read Proverbs 24:17-18.  I work at allstate and I sell car insurance all day long. I could easily fix this for her, but I wont. While I don't want anything bad to happen to my sister, I'm not going to go out of my way to help her. Nor am I going to rejoice at her hardships. I'm simply gonna pray for her that she finds peace in her heart and lets the anger go. 
 Forgiving someone doesn't mean taking them back in your life. It simply means you decided to let go of the hurt and find peace. I desire no relationship with her and she is to have no relationship with my kids either. I consider her somebody I used to know. God is restoring everything that was taken from me and replacing it with more than I could have ever dreamed of. I kinda don't have time to worry about her anyway.

I love that asshole

My day doesn't go right unless my significant other calls me an asshole at least twice a day. We call each other asshole the way most couples say I love you. I know that sounds crazy but its true. Its nothing for me to answer the phone and say "hey jerk how was your day" and he will respond "was good till I called you asshole"  Our relationship is different and a lot of people don't get it, but it works for us.  I knew he was the one when he barked at me on our first date. He gets my odd sense of humor that a lot of people don't understand.
We talk so crazy to each other during a regular day, that when we have a disagreement, we talk to each other calmly and with respect. It allows us to fight fair without the name calling and hitting below the belt. If he calls me by my name instead of asshole or jerk face, I know its a serious discussion.
No our relationship isn't perfect.  We have problems like many couples.  When you're raising a family with someone and finances get involved you're gonna have a few issues. Some days I wanna beat him and most days he wants to choke me.
Being in love means being able to say "I love you but I don't like you today asshole" or at least that's what it means to me. We've never sat down and discussed this it just works and that's how we know we're compatible.
I tend to be abrasive at times, judgemental and a little harsh.  He on the other hand is a daydreamer and while he has tons of ideas he often times doesn't know how to get started.  We balance each other out. I help him make plans and he helps me loosen up and relax.
However I think we are gonna have to cut that asshole shit out.  As much as I love out playful banter I don't want me baby to be going around calling people assholes and buttheads.